Run, Katie, Run!

Seriously, watching that girl come out of her marriage is like watching a friend leave her abusive man that you've never liked.  Maybe she'll start smiling again.

The ACA is why I have health insurance today

BUT
I am quite upset that the Supreme Court upheld the part that said it is mandatory for Americans to purchase health care.  The entire ACA wasn't bad; that part was.

Half Dome

If I compare life to a hike -

with all its twists and vistas and up hills and down -

and see the final destination 

not

as the summit,

but 

as the moment we get to go Home and 

have showers and 

lie down in our nice comfy beds of rest...

then I want you with me on the descent.

Of Wedding Cakes and Government Insurance

This weekend was a good reminder of why I'm getting surgery. Months ago I volunteered to make my friends' wedding cake. They're young and fresh out of college and I like to do that for people who don't have tons of cash. So they're getting married today. And sitting on the cake table is a gorgeous cake with gorgeous flowers that I poured probably 15 hours of my life into and I desperately hope they like it.

But I'm not at the wedding I was supposed to attend. And my dad had to drive me there and stand by my side while I set up the cake. And the cake itself looks different from what the bride and I discussed. Because. Because yesterday, cake-frosting day, I unexpectedly started my period and was laid up for hours and was crying in the bathroom half the night and have been hugging my heating pad to my body as if to let go would be to lose my soul.

 I don't want to miss anymore weddings.

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PCIP: Pre-existing Condition Insurance Policy. This is a government insurance policy I was told about recently. I applied, was accepted, and they'll be coving about $10,000 of my surgery expenses! What a blessing from our sweet God. My sister Bekah will be changing the fundraiser to reflect the new projected cost of the surgery, so stay tuned for that. I'll still need somewhere between ten and fifteen thousand from my end, so if you're still thinking of donating please do! And thanks to those who already have. As strange as it sounds, I can't wait to have surgery!!

(PS I'll post a picture of the cake sometime.  Right now I'm going back to my heating pad. :)

Aluminum is toxic folks!

I'm not huge into conspiracy and naysaying, but this video is really important. I worked for a soil and groundwater testing and cleanup agency for 2 years, and I can tell you - these levels of metals in the soil and water are neither safe nor normal. Climate manipulation and geoengineering are stupid and dangerous.

the garden of your mind

Heads or Tails

I've always rushed headlong into life without stopping to catch my breath and never had a hard time making a decision; I know what I want, I go for it.  Then life got messy and I had to go to the ER for my endo and I suddenly realized that I'm not invincible and my "life is a grand adventure and I can do anything I set my mind to" mentality flipped, like a coin, to "I'm too sick to even commit to doing dinner with you tonight so let me go hide in the closet for a while".  I find myself internally backing out on decisions I've made for myself. Two days ago I was sold; today I want to run back into the secure arms of the status quo and pretend like I've always wanted to be there.  I hate being this old while being so completely dependent on my parents...yet at the same time I never want to leave their house, never want to work for anyone else, and always want to act like I'm 14.   I don't like this post-ER me.

Which is why I should buy a motorcycle.