Unbearable grace

On May 11th I swallowed a pill called Pride
and asked all my friends and family to help me pay for surgery.
And I thought that was painful.
Then they started giving,
and my heart didn't know if it was soaring or sinking.
The love of others is a magnificent burden;
heavy in a good way, like a thick blanket in the middle of winter.
Or,
like a wave pulling you under and flipping you over,
making you realize how tiny you really are.
Or,
like that moment on the roller coaster...
the one where you tip the edge and start going down really fast.

Thank you for turning me upside down,
inside out;
for wrapping your arms around me,
and making me realize how good it is to need you.